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Seems I'm having a hard time. In the last 3 days, I've had wine one night and crappy food all the rest. Now I do feel like crap. Chills, clammy, body aches, mental fog. I feel poisoned. Food and to a lesser extent wine have been my only comforts for a long time. My husband is the same way. I can't blame him, but at the same time, I do feel pulled down by him. I feel worse today than I have in a very long time.

Day whatever

My blogger was down for a few days there, but I stayed on plan.

Saturday and Monday I did some backsliding. With husband and kids and cooking etc etc etc, I ate some junk, drank some wine. I still feel really, really good and have gained only 2 pounds back. I don't feel hopeless or like giving up.

It is back on track today. As easy as it has been for me to stick to this plan, it is surprsing how easy it was to screw up. Chalk it up to old habits that die hard.

days 10 and 11

Good and great. I feel like I'm "switched over" to eating this way. I feeling very fine without wine. I'm still losing about a pound a day. I have a bout 50 pounds to go to get a a really healthy skinny weight. Dr Fuhrman says if you stick to the diet, only eat when you are truly hungry and exercise moderately, the weight will drop to its ideal and stay there. I have no idea what my ideal weight is. I'm guessing somewhere between 140 and 120. I feel like it will be a nice suprise when I get there.

day 9, week 2

Another good day in the books. Pretty sure I hit my quota of vegetables. I feel really nice.

Day 8. one week wrap up.

I'm done with the first week! I can say these few things about my first week on Dr Fuhrman's food plan (vegetarian for aggressive weightloss):

1) it has not been difficult to avoid the things on the avoid list, except and a few daily tablespoons of salad dressing.

2) It has been difficult to consume the amount of vegetables prescribed. I have not yet been able to get 1 pound of raw and 1 pound of cooked veg down my neck yet!!

3) I am not hungry more than once or twice a day. In the morning I want breakfast and I'm pretty hungry by about 1pm. If I eat a huge salad with beans and fruit, I feel pretty comfortable for the rest of the day. I've been reluctant to stuff more greens in my mouth at dinner.

4) I'vee lost 7 pounds this week and 4 inches off my waist.

For this coming week, I plan to:

1) make green smoothies as a way to hit the daily greens quota.

2) water my salad dressings down to half and half.

3) exercise more

4) experience the true hunger described in Dr Fuhrman's book.

day seven, week one

Last night was hard emotionally. I made an amazing chicken and pasta dinner for my family, with 2 cooked green veg and a salad. My husband drank 3/4 bottle of wine and baked a chocolate cake. Then he had chips and salsa. I stayed on track 100%, but felt very disconnected with him.

Food and wine have been a huge "glue" for our relationship. From the very beginning our relationship revolved around food and wine. From our first dates, our wedding, our honeymoon, our parties and family dinners. I'm feeling sad and afraid to let that go, but we have both gained over 50 pounds since we met 11 years ago. We've had 2 kids, earned a masters degree, bought 2 houses and a pacemaker, a c-pap, and a seizure disorder. We argue and snipe almost all the time these days. Maybe my transitioning to this nutritarian lifesyle is another big transition for us that will bring more stress, but what I'm really after is peace.

I hope this and all the other things I've done to change in the last few years will be worth it. Health, happiness and peace. These are my only goals for me and my family. I hope this is will work.

Last night did end on a great note. Because I hadn't been drinking, I felt clear and light and spent great quality time with the kids. Ane when I woke up this morning, I had lost another pound!

day 6

Farmer's market today. I'm going to try hard to hit that 1 pound each of raw and steamed veg today. Feel fine. No wine, coffee, sugar, animal products or flour.